Feeling like i dont really “feel” anything this past years. Just another pressure from college stuff, another friend issues, another ldr struggle. But i dont do much cry like, “that much”, u know. Nor do i overthinking what people said about me. Hm. Like theres nothing to tell either. I used to have stories to tell you know. Now, i dont feel like telling stories that i dont think it will be intriguing for some people, u know what i mean?
Now, i dont feel like putting stories or life updates here as well, my blog. But maybe some times, like right now, because i want to. Because doesnt it weird that i am not too sensitive like i used to? I used to feel anything sooo deeply. I care too much. I cry too much. I think too much. Now what makes me cry is when some stupid people abusing innocent animals or some poor old people who lives alone or people with disabilities who deserves so much more but they can do more than i ever do. I just..dont know.
I dont feel sad about my life anymore 😂 isnt that a good thing? Even tho sometimes confusing
I’m just accepting everything. Like oh okay this is all i got. When my friends being so shitty but actually i havent been a good friend either. When my parents giving my brothers more than to me but actually i dont really gave them much either. When my boyfriend seems like doesnt giving much effort but actually i dont really gave him an effort either. And also when my grades are always average, how can i complain when all i do is watching drama series (or me-ttime-ing) instead of studying the whole semester (just study when its necessary like the night before pre-test/quiz/final test).
Not just accepting then i didnt do anything to improve it ya, just accepting that this is what i got with “that effort”, u know what i mean.
Of course like everyone else im trying to be better everyday.
So, yea, i just feel numb. Somehow.
Now, i dont feel like putting stories or life updates here as well, my blog. But maybe some times, like right now, because i want to. Because doesnt it weird that i am not too sensitive like i used to? I used to feel anything sooo deeply. I care too much. I cry too much. I think too much. Now what makes me cry is when some stupid people abusing innocent animals or some poor old people who lives alone or people with disabilities who deserves so much more but they can do more than i ever do. I just..dont know.
I dont feel sad about my life anymore 😂 isnt that a good thing? Even tho sometimes confusing
I’m just accepting everything. Like oh okay this is all i got. When my friends being so shitty but actually i havent been a good friend either. When my parents giving my brothers more than to me but actually i dont really gave them much either. When my boyfriend seems like doesnt giving much effort but actually i dont really gave him an effort either. And also when my grades are always average, how can i complain when all i do is watching drama series (or me-ttime-ing) instead of studying the whole semester (just study when its necessary like the night before pre-test/quiz/final test).
Not just accepting then i didnt do anything to improve it ya, just accepting that this is what i got with “that effort”, u know what i mean.
Of course like everyone else im trying to be better everyday.
So, yea, i just feel numb. Somehow.
